Hopelessly....

I see...how several shades of my life collide against each other...
it is dificult to see them crash...being able to do nothing to stop them
i live in a international fantasy, where my deepest desires come out...
i live in a world freed from gender complications...
i live in a cell of complicated decisions, each one leading me to a even more complicated one...
it has been a real hell to discover the world without her,
even more when the world seems to be falling apart as i write this...
while listening to Nobuo...or Chevelle, i find difficult to get a fine tune for this situation...
i hope that in the middle of this mess, i find the piece that will bring me to balance...


...once again